I'm honestly not feeling too well so I just wanted to type some things to ease the pain.
I have so many things bottled up to the point where even the smallest disheartening things can make me break down into tears. The emotions I've been suppressing all this time are catching up and it makes me so frustrated. I feel so weak and fragile. I'm scared. I just want to hide from the whole world. It feels like I'm relying too much on other things making me happy than myself if that makes sense?
I wish I could head out on a trip in the nature to find myself, although it's not that easy because I live in an overprotective household. I'm not allowed to do anything on my own and I'm not even exaggerating. It's not easy to "just do what I want because I'm an adult" so that's easier said than done. I want to be more independent but there are way too many obstacles for me to be so. I'm 19, turning 20 in about 2 months but I still feel like a child. I feel trapped and I'm suffocating.
